Cynicism has become my diet. I am trying to change it though. The only time I don't feed on it is the time when I'm dancing. That's the only thing that keeps my mind fresh, not stung by my past. The music, the steps, friends....friends who have no clue who I am, or what I have done. I spin around on the dance floor, spin really fast... hoping all the cynicism evaporates out of my self one day.